Sunday, August 24, 2014
Sundays with Sam: Welcome RICK!
Hi! I guess you can tell my the post title, that little cheesy hello sign I found, and Sammy's introduction, that this is Rick! It's very nice to meet you and I hope I can come up with something that won't sound too dorky! :)
When Sam told me about all the posts he's written for the blog I was a little nervous at first because I figured my name might come up a few times and I guess I was a little selfconscious. Then when I read the first one where he talked about how we met the first time, it was really interesting to see how he described what he was thinking and all that. I was so nervous that first time we met because when I first looked over and saw him having trouble starting his car, my heart started beating like it was going to explode. I mean I couldn't stop just staring at him. I've never had that kind of reaction when I saw a goodlooking guy before. I remember going over to see if I could help him with the battery or whatever it was but believe me, the closer I got to him, the more nervous I started feeling. I mean, here was this really, really cute guy and I wanted so bad to chat him up and see if I could get a read on him. So it was interesting to read how nervous he felt when he saw me coming to his car. I smiled during that whole post he wrote!
Well, when Sam told me about writing for the blog, he showed me the very first thing he wrote and I started with that one and read them all the way through without stopping. I had so many different reactions to what he's been sharing and thought I would just add a few observations from my standpoint.
I'm not ashamed to say I was in tears at various times. The only way I can explain it is by saying I always get a little emotional when Sam talks about things that he feels from his heart. It can be something really sad and I start tearing up, or it can be something he's super excited about and I get filled up with so much joy and excitement that I can get really moved. He has this incredibly honest way of talking and by that I mean there's this purity and innocence that always makes me want to treat each word with as much tenderness as I can. It's a little hard to describe but there's something that makes me want to hear each word with a sense of awe. He never uses throwaway words so I always know everything he says has very special meaning and believe me, I could literally sit and listen to him talk for hours. When I tell him this he gets a little embarrassed and selfconscious but I love how he talks about things. And you should hear how his voice sounds. He hooks me every single time.
I'm probably not going to write a whole lot because I've never written anything like a blog post before but I just wanted to say a couple more things. The first thing you need to know about Sammy is how strong he is, and I'm not talking about his physical strength, even though he's got plenty of that since he does landscaping for his job. But I'm talking about his inner strength. I have ideas about where he got all that and I think he's taken a lot of trials he's been through and learned plenty about himself and how to be strong even though he had to do a lot of hard work by himself.
But he also has this amazing and awesome tenderness about him that I love so much. But don't ever for one second think that tenderness means he's weak or fragile or might break. It's really the direct opposite. Man, he's a lot stronger than me. He's made me stop and think about my own life a lot harder than I ever have before. And I swear whenever we need to have a serious talk about anything you can tell in his eyes he's going to stay with it until we get to wherever we need to get to. He does not give up. That's just not in him, and I love seeing it and I've learned so much from him.
Another thing about my Sammy is his unique sense of humor. Sometimes when he's on a roll I literally go into tears because I'm laughing my behind off at his humor. I swear I have no idea how he comes up with his unique take on things. You should trust me on this. He has a wicked sense of humor that seems to come out of nowhere and almost always catches me off guard every time. And his face goes into all kinds of expressions when that humor comes out. And his eyes. If I wasn't laughing so hard at his humor I would just be staring at his eyes because he can almost tell a whole story by watching his eyes. It's almost like his eyes are laughing along with his words. And on a side note, he has the most beautiful and striking eyes I have ever seen on a guy before. If it wouldn't be so awkward and weird, I think I could just stare at his eyes for an hour without him even saying one single word and at the end of that hour, I could probably tell you everything he was thinking.
There's so much I could tell you about him but maybe I'll see how this post goes and maybe share some other things later. I guess you may have noticed I didn't say all that much about myself and that's because for this post I wanted to keep this on Sam and tell him how special he is to me. There is no hesitation on my part when I say I am a better person because I know him.
But before I go I want to make sure I say one more thing and this is extremely important to me. It was amazing and all kinds of awesome for me to read every single comment all of you leave him each week. I've spent the past two weeks going back and rereading everything Sam wrote. And then I reread every comment under all the post that you guys leave him. I have to make sure I have a box of tissues close by because how you guys support and encourage him means the world to me. There was one night he was sitting next to me while I was reading a couple of his posts and he was trying to rush me through what he had written. And that was because he was so excited for me to read the comment section. When he sits with me to read the posts and the comments you guys leave him, we have to make sure there's two boxes of tissues because when he tears up, I look at him and I start tearing up. All of you are so amazing.
So the next to the last thing I'd like to say is Thank You for being a part of Sam's life each Sunday. I know it means a lot to him, and I want all of you to know it means a lot to me.
Now the very last thing I want to say before I go is to My Sammy. You hear me say all the time how much I love you. And I don't say those words lightly. It's not just a phrase I throw around because I'm suppose to. Every time I tell you that it comes straight from my heart. And my heart is not only a lot stronger because of you, but it's more alive than it's ever been in my whole life.
I love you, my BOYFRIEND. I love you, my Sammy. Always and forever.