Wait, let me correct that to make it more accurate. This is Sam-I-Am-In-Love.
Boy, I think I typed that last sentence a little bit too fast, so in case you did not catch it, let me slow it down and try one more time.
Okay. Here goes. Are you ready?
I LOVED all the comments you left that world-famous Professor a couple of weeks ago when he gave that lecture on What is Love? Remember? Professor Sam-I-Am from the University of Dr. Seuss! Well, he sat down with me and Rick and went over all the great things every one said. And it really helped us a lot, so THANK YOU!
And then guess what happened? Well, I have been talking to Brad about how you know you're in love, and then I talked to Matty about it, too. I'm not sure why I wanted to talk to them individually, but that's what I did and they both helped me out a lot.
But wait! There's even more to this great story!! Guess who called Brad and Matty and asked if he could come over to their house to talk to them (without me)? Yes! Rick, my BOYFRIEND. I didn't know he had called them! He told me about it when we had our Talk about being in love.
So here is how that went down. (Right now I am so nervous typing all this because it is SO SWEET!)
So, Rick told me he went over to talk to Brad and Matty because -- get this -- he wanted to tell them he was sure he loved me and, well, wanted to know they had any concerns. When I asked Rick what that meant, he said, "I just wanted to get their opinion on whether they thought I was good enough for you." I could not believe he asked them that! When he told me that, I did what Sam-I-Am always does when some body actually believes I am worth some thing -- I started crying, like a baby.
Rick then told me he talked to them because he knows it would be impossible to talk to my own parents about this and he felt Brad and Matty are not only extremely close friends to me, but are my Protectors, just like Parents are suppose to be. So he said that was close enough for him, and he wanted to do this right!
CAN YOU BELIEVE HOW INCREDIBLE THAT IT?
AND KIND OF OLD FASHIONED?
So, how do I know I am in love with Rick? Well, it's kind of hard to explain, but do you see that heart picture I put up there? It looks like it's a heart that's been stitched together. And without sounding like I'm feeling sorry for my self, I feel like my heart has been split into so many pieces and Rick has helped me stitch it back together. I know that might sound kind of sappy, but to me it makes a whole lot of sense.
Rick has always treated me like I matter, and not like he is just going through the motions of simply being nice to me. He said he can't stop thinking about me and feels sad when he is not with me. When I finally told him all the major details of my life and every thing I have been through, he never even once looked like he felt sorry for me or like I was pathetic or had too much baggage or was damaged goods.
He thinks I am a lot stronger than I realize and he admires my strength -- when he told me that, I started crying again because I guess I have let him see more of me than I realized. And he said he "treasures" me!
So I also told him exactly how I felt about him which made me cry some more. And when I apologized for crying so much, he got teary and said for me to never, never, never be ashamed of my feelings. I can't remember his exact words, but it was some thing like this: "Baby, when you cry, I get to see what you feel inside. That means you trust me with your tender side as well as your strong side. I am in love with it all."
Well, I had to take a break from typing after that last paragraph because I got so emotional. I just feel so loved and cared for that I can not even find all the words to describe it.
Well, I guess that is my big news for this week. But I just want to say one more thing about all of you who take the time each week to leave me the comments you do. YOU have all played a HUGE part in helping me grow so I could be ready for this next part of my life. You may think I am just saying that to be nice, but if you could look into my heart, you would see that I do not make up stuff like this.
So please do not doubt me when I say Thank You for being here for me. I wish I could reach out and give each one of you a bear hug because you deserve one. My counseling program is a major support for me. Brad and Matty are a major support for me. Rick (my BOYFRIEND WHO LOVES ME) is a major support for me. And YOU are a major support for me.
I think I am going to make it now.
Love, from Sam-I-Am-In-Love.
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