I'm actually writing this on Friday night and wanted to let you guys know I really appreciate all the love and care and support you've given me this week. I'm meeting with my dad today.
I didn't mention in my earlier post this week that my dad has contacted me three or four times over the past month just to check in with me. No heavy conversations. No discussion of "issues" or anything like that. Once he asked about how my classes were going. Once he asked if Matty and I might like this really nice bookcase he made years ago. That kind of thing. Just short and simple conversations.
I was very aware of the tone of his voice and tried to hear if there was anything fake or false in it. I'm trying not to over-analyze everything, but I guess that's to be expected.
I had my counseling session this week and my therapist (who has a doctorate in psychology) said a lot of the same things all of you said in your comments to my post. As if I didn't already know it, you guys are very smart and wise and all deserve a doctor's degree! So please accept this "Ph.D. Degree" from The University of Bradley!! LOL
Just to recap:
I have my faults like everybody else, but at my core? I'm perfect just the way I am.
I don't need my dad's acceptance or approval. If I get it, fine. If I don't get it, fine. The only person who needs to accept and approve of me? Bradley.
I have an open mind and an open heart and I am strong enough to protect both.
Love you all.